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This must be the last time that I’m writing something for her since i have destroyed almost every way we can see each other again.
Yesterday only at this time i was preparing gift for her and it feels like everything is over there is 50/50 contribution of me and of her so what a tragedy of life we met years ago on my birthday one of my friend introduced her to me it was like most wonderful moment of my life talking to her and see the tragedy today it’s all over When today is her birthday it all began on my birthday and got over on her birthday god was this all planned because this planning sucks
I will feel this guilt till my last breath that I destroyed her birthday celebration she is a sensitive girl and I know that still anger took control of me I said her bad words and I half regret it and half not because she did what she must not have done but it was also necessary because I was the only guy perhaps who was in between her and her boyfriend so I was already determined not today but Someday in past that if I have to leave her then just for the sake of her happiness I have to say her something which hurts her the most so that she never turn her back again and look at me she must hate me so much that she don’t even think of me for a second even if she think of me then she should only hate me because this is the way she will be close to her boyfriend now come on Devansh we had no future and the guy she is with they both have to spend together lifelong that’s why it was ok to lose my bestie just for the sake of her happiness I know I was in anger that time but now when I think what has happened all I think is that she will be even closer to her boyfriend and also her brother is with him I must have got no particular place I was also feeling like being played like a toy but Dil Hey Ki Manta Nahi tears must not roll down from my eyes but if they do
I don’t want to say anything
I made a gift for her with all my heart and patience i dont know what to do of it & when I listen that she has done something which she told me already she will never do that just burnt my anger and I lost control of myself I I did tell her bad and now I feel half because today was her birthday and I messed it up but also since the wound is Deep I expect the Angel will never turn to me again I sincerely regret what I did but now there is no one left between she and the boyfriend of her I know she can’t left me and her boyfriend also so I just left her and made the path easy
This pain and feelings the hurting feelings will not leave me for months but I will move on somehow thinking she must be happy now I am sorry lord I am sorry my bestie rather say besty of my past I am sorry to everyone that I hurt it will be tough to move on but I will somehow.
Edited Post : so I am editing this post after one day from writing this I wanna say I have no regret whatsoever she deserved it and so whatever I said and done she actually deserved more than this but I did so less she is the type of girl who can kill anybody’s happiness just for the sake of her happiness and then she says simply I just want to live happily I ended it up in a so light way its ok at least I am happy now the mean girl is no more in my life whatever I road above was a piece of shit emotion there is no mistake of me neither I have any regret I did what was right and she deserves it over and out
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