Disclaimer: whoever read this no sympathy no nothing read and ignore it like you never read i dont want anything from anybody all i want is to write to pour my feelings and to make myself feel better..
So its 16 Nov 2017
i have been waiting for this day like a thirsty for water like a hunger for meal
ayeah you know this is just a big deal ..
i dont wana rap this time i just wana write about the fight
thats going on in mind
through morning to night nine
wait all i wana is write
no rap
so
the end is not really like i wanted second the memories and feelings are like they are growing i dont wana grow them i want them to be vanished i dont want her back in my life …
but this fucking mind this fucking mind cant stop huh
we broke almost 2.5 months ago
i managed myself somehow studies were necessary at that time
but now im free yah i must try doing other things keeping myself busy but does that mean im already prone to her memories … it wasnt my fault even … but this fucking mind huh
i dont know i want to kill these memories and feelings i wana pour them out of my mind okay to be true from heart ….
mind is all that gives memories but feelings come from heart
both are trying to grab me right now
i dont know what to do
exams of 2nd group were not good i didnt want this end but i met it now its time to refresh myself and this comes
i can handle myself through the worst im not saying i have stopped here but mennn her faceeee wowwww….
damnnnn….
i wana kill this all ..
i am not stoping all over here the only way i express myself and my feelings is through writing and thats what im doing right now …
i dont want anybody to read but still im gonna share it on facebook and wattpad … not because you must read but because you may read..
im feeling a bit cool now han
this is life han
people come and go but life goes on
fuck the base kill the rest huh han
memories
so yeah im gonna go for running from tomorrow im gonna work out im gonna take rest play MW3 call of duty write my Novel talk to people on wattpad and do a lot many things
and yeah i know you the fucking memory and fucking feelings you still gonna come to me
so i just need time
with time they will all vanish
she was a good girl literally
i am not dying for her
but to be true i respect her still but thats all that is left respect and nothing else
so im smiling now lol
im kinda feeling good
this writing is the best escape
haha
i was bad during these past few months i didnt study alot
i addicted to porn
and yeah thats all a shit
im gonna improve now
i want 3 shileds
in this year icai competitions 1 in elocution 1 in race and 1 is definitely my love thats in chess that shield is mine han
so i am gonna eat food come back do work on my novel play game workout and then sleep as from tomorrow onwards my running session is gonna begin
im so excited about it yeahhhhhhhhhhhh
i will sprint with all energy i got yeyyyyyyyyyyyyy
it will be fucking amazing han
im gonna do push ups chilling the case walker style chilling han
sprint bastard Devansh sprint as fast as you can haha
so fast that you leave her memories and feelings behind ……………..
Fuck lol
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