I took my tablet off its cover as i came from my balcony looking at the dogs barking and Moonlight and the street light which was shining on my face as well as on dogs i tried to feel little whatever that im going through in my life how fasten these days are passing and how my nov 17 attempt is coming closer how my life changed after taking medicines how my life change after my besty came back in my life how i still feel that things are under control as long as im taking medicines how i realise that there is still something running in my mind that can scare me off how was trying to bring back the firm determination once used to have in 12 class how im trying to convince myself that i cant let go of this crucial moment of life i must study ….
What i felt suddenly looking at the street light and the dogs, that these days this time is passing more fast than expected if i look back i think there is plenty of time to still prepare for exam but when i see now theres no time left at all everything everything is just passing so so fast these days …
I want to stay conscious i cant let go of my consciousness since it was hard to achieve that i could spend hours talking to my self like this
Im crazy a little ..
Standing there and trying to rap some what and make a line like ek insan k samne he asli me kafi hun baki duniya k samne raja joker he sahi and realising i havent still told anyone of my weakness and what makes me cry its alright but i have managed this way like since years so im habitual to it i dont feel like telling it to anyone anymore .. medicines are working their best so im just alright making others happy and laugh be it juniors at office or friends or family members who ever i dont care i perform my role as a joker ..
My time is up i must study now as i said i must not loose consciousness and cant let go of this crucial time..
Feeling light after writing after these many months
Raja te asli chehra jane bs ek vyakti
Baki sab k samne raja joker jo dilaye hasiii
Haha Raja te sapne 🙂
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