Take for example this another day
i wake up
yeah its not the same
not the same anymore again
not the same since years.
Sometimes it’s just all makes me cry. just tears down the eyes wiping them again and yeah whose the king im the one im the one lets get back to work again to study to reading to playing chess to better yourself but how long ?? i just can’t tell them how does it feel. sometimes i feel like whatever ever happened it might have been less if i might have shared my feels with someone else but i never really cared just fighting it on my own writing raps about it and just fighting it since years. i just wanna spit a lot i don’t wanna cry one day before someone breaking down completely bursting up everything i ever hide since these many years .. nahhh this is not something gonna happen i have a better control over me. but thing is that this seems to be taking a toll and each day im pushing myself for a better one it is ready to push me backwards backwards even far by even far by even into it.
Hey this is not what i was meant to be what life was meant to be it was meant much more to work hard to keep thinking about what i wanna keep thinking about and not the daily messed up thoughts i ever have in mind.sometimes it all begin from the morning itself sometimes in afternoon and then just ….. no matter what it’s hard to change. I’ve got no greed for someone’s company nor any wrong intentions towards anyone i just don’t care what anyone do i just do my work silently i try hard not to harm emotions but sometimes im like i don’t care. but thing is that leave me on my own accord. i just meant im not bad i was not supposed to collide with this all , with this all gun fire going on in mind that feel like battleground. it has affected a lot a lot a lot that was & is just beyond control. im and will be trying everyday hard hard & really hard enough to change to be just a better one & yeah what i referred to in my last blog treatment is necessary i don’t know how i don’t know when but hey buddy The King just stay strong your Treatment Troops are coming haha till than Have Courage Enough To Fight With Available Weapons Inventory i.e. Will Power haha … you kinda a Soldier and Warrior kind of yeahhh … haha
so the thing is that
im writing here just to feel a bit of light just to share here and feel fine
getting off the blog ..
Pray for a New ME 🙂
i wake up
yeah its not the same
not the same anymore again
not the same since years.
Sometimes it’s just all makes me cry. just tears down the eyes wiping them again and yeah whose the king im the one im the one lets get back to work again to study to reading to playing chess to better yourself but how long ?? i just can’t tell them how does it feel. sometimes i feel like whatever ever happened it might have been less if i might have shared my feels with someone else but i never really cared just fighting it on my own writing raps about it and just fighting it since years. i just wanna spit a lot i don’t wanna cry one day before someone breaking down completely bursting up everything i ever hide since these many years .. nahhh this is not something gonna happen i have a better control over me. but thing is that this seems to be taking a toll and each day im pushing myself for a better one it is ready to push me backwards backwards even far by even far by even into it.
Hey this is not what i was meant to be what life was meant to be it was meant much more to work hard to keep thinking about what i wanna keep thinking about and not the daily messed up thoughts i ever have in mind.sometimes it all begin from the morning itself sometimes in afternoon and then just ….. no matter what it’s hard to change. I’ve got no greed for someone’s company nor any wrong intentions towards anyone i just don’t care what anyone do i just do my work silently i try hard not to harm emotions but sometimes im like i don’t care. but thing is that leave me on my own accord. i just meant im not bad i was not supposed to collide with this all , with this all gun fire going on in mind that feel like battleground. it has affected a lot a lot a lot that was & is just beyond control. im and will be trying everyday hard hard & really hard enough to change to be just a better one & yeah what i referred to in my last blog treatment is necessary i don’t know how i don’t know when but hey buddy The King just stay strong your Treatment Troops are coming haha till than Have Courage Enough To Fight With Available Weapons Inventory i.e. Will Power haha … you kinda a Soldier and Warrior kind of yeahhh … haha
so the thing is that
im writing here just to feel a bit of light just to share here and feel fine
getting off the blog ..
Pray for a New ME 🙂
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