Heyaaa everyone haha or perhaps no one .. anyway just from the very busy schedule im here to share something I really wana write about .. though this is something i must write in diary about but being a blogger it’s my responsibility to write about me , my circumstances here … Since last couple of days I’ve been feeling like pushing myself I don’t know if it’s exactly like that way I used to in 12th class during 2011-12 but that year has taught me some of the hardest lessons to follow forever in life … I can’t just forget them at any point in my life no no not possible Im not still out of it the hit .. less sleep that year hard very hard determination hurting myself alot of hurt but passion within yeah I can do it no matter what I feel But that all was foolishness the bill Im still paying cost for Not having fun busy Busy busy so busy goal dreams etc etc etc but no that’s not right I was just not right I didn’t know about it until life taught me that in a painful way Pain that is felt even today everyday Its kinda hurting I can feel the increase of heartbeats the tension in mind that hotness that sudden grab of it that mind junked completely that stoppage that mind pauses those distractions those fears those everything that entered on the most unusual occasion of 01 March 2012 But thing is that what happened happened no matter what I have to move on now somehow but things have got so far so far that now thinking can help but not to the extent It should be because these are not temporary they return they return in the most stressful moments I go completely made then How I recovered and managed myself to keep going no one knows this in this world except one guy MYSELF I need to refer to some those persons again I know it would cost but thing is that if I won’t it will keep keep increasing and I don’t wana give my CA final exams with it it will be a risk a bigger higher risk if I’ve to clear it in single shot I must first get remedy for this Since that fall I was changed in CPT completely changed no determination happiness smile all time cool things no nothing goal setting kind of but no matter what what you are from within will come out again thing is that I was afraid If I get too serious again if don’t sleep everything will return again but nowadays im like watch motivational videos each day Seriousness for this particular thing causes mind to get into another world again and its that that might be something which increases my brain problems im already facing Thing is that I should be able to maintain balance not too much of that and also not anything of that just Balance I don’t know when I begin hurting my mind because of all this my thoughts this way are so deep that Im ready to achieve what I want at any cost I shouldn’t be that seriously again I must get time for fun for movies outing friends etc etc etc I can’t just repeat the same mistake as I committed in 2012 No nahhh Though im trying hard and my these particular problems are Increasing I must manage to keep moving in best way possible until I get treatment done but I’ve to do this as early as possible im way far with these all Watching motivational no doubt helps me alot and I’ll be watching them each day because they are my oxygen and they are the reason im still this warrior king type of But I must not be a lot serious I’ll be making sure about it each day to get adequate sleep and everything that keeps my determination firm but same time take care of myself too … Thing is that no matter how hard it is and no matter how hard it gets I’ll keep moving like a King 😎 Yeah im a King 😎
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